Friday, June 4, 2010

Knock, Knock, Knocking on Heaven's Door

Dear Lord,

I know I don't talk to you enough, don't display you enough in my life and I make daily mistakes despite having your Word to guide me. I try my best and always find myself failing in some way, shape or form. But I know that you understand your ultimate plan for me more than I could ever comprehend, which is why I plead with you now to please help me be steadfast in the wake of struggles.

Grant me patience when I have little to spare to those around me.
Show me your forgiveness and send me opportunities to forgive.
Allow me to find ways to help others, even when I remain un-helped.
Teach me how to love others more fervently, just as you love all of your children.

I don't ask for you to take my struggles from me, lest I forget your power and how much I need you. . . . just that you help me stand firm in my faith, use me for your will and temper my days with your unending mercy and love.

I pray this in your Son's awesome name. . . . Amen!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Confessions from the Unemployed. . . .

WOW – it’s been a LONG time since I’ve written. I’d like to say that I’ve been uber busy with so much to do because I’m so important, blah blah blah! . . . . . but I can’t. I’ve just been lazy! Sure I’ve had a lot on my mind and probably twice as much to say but I just haven’t connected it on this blog - sorry. :(

Truth of the matter is I’ve had a lot of ideas, hopes, desires and changes coming over me. I felt the need to make a move and do something different for our family. It’s really a case of coming full circle in that I spent many years being a stay-at-home mom while going to school, then I got a job related to my degree and have now opted to once again stay home. “Whoa- wait! . . . . you mean all that time going to school, student loans, job searching to find a great job and now you’re back to square #1??” you are probably asking. But I don’t believe that I’m back to square #1. I believe that I’m forging onto a new square that has other opportunities. Besides, what fun is life if you never question the status quo and don’t take a chance??

I’ve learned many things about myself over the last year and continue to strive to make my life worth something – not just for me but for others. I want my kids to learn that there’s more to life than money, career, material things, beauty, etc. Here are some lessons I’ve learned in the process of where I’m at now:

• God always puts you where he wants you – either for a reason, season or for the duration to do his work – and I want to put my gifts to good use.

• Life and what the day entails aren’t always about ME – there are so many who need a helping hand or even just a smile – and I can offer both!

• Sometimes the things we think we want aren’t always the best for us and I’m not going to continue trying to fit a square in a circular hole – so to speak! ;)

• Taking a step ‘back’ can sometimes drive you further forward in reaching your goals.

• My children are only young once and our time here is limited – I don’t want to miss so much that I spend my future in regret.

• Above all – it’s a true adventure to take a leap of faith w/out knowing what’s on the bottom – scary at first but all the more worth it in the end!

So I’m not ‘downgrading’ myself or ‘limiting’ my career options – I’m writing a new chapter in my life and doing what I’ve been scared to do for too long. . . . . I’m following the pull of God on my heart and looking for places/people to serve to make a difference!!