But I want it NOW!!!!!!

Has there ever been something you've wanted so bad that it literally was on your mind 24/7 and you just HAD TO HAVE IT?? I remember being a kid and loving to tag along with either of my parents to the store. I'm surprised they didn't pull out their hair with the constant, "Can I get that?" or "Dad, I want to get some of these, PLEASE!!!!" Sometimes patience is a virture - right?! I'm sure a dose of patience is what they had to keep letting me go with them, even if I didn't get what I wanted each time. ;)

Unfortunately, I really don't think we outgrow this reaction even as adults. I get urges like this quite often - as I'm sure most do. Not all urges/desires eat me up inside and plague me in my sleep, though. But there are many that instill constant twinges, nonetheless. Most of my wants are pretty benevolent, such as having a tasting for some form of carry out (sushi!!), maybe a new pair of shoes or top, grabbing a 6-pack. . . or two *wink*.

But what happens when the want/desire isn't so easy to quelch? Those are the hardest to deal with because they don't go away so easily. Eating a snack temporarily dilutes the desire to order sushi carry-out, right? See, that was easy. And when I would shop with my parents and ask for something, their response would mostly be, "Not this time. Maybe next time". That method totally worked for them because being a kid, I would usually forget next time, move on, and be onto asking for something else. . . . just to get the same response. :) The whole theory - Out of Sight, Out of Mind completely fits this scenario!

But what about things that aren't so tangible that we want? Maybe wanting recognition from someone who offers little is what pains you? That is a harder pill to swallow! Or maybe you feel stuck in a rut in life with work/relationship plateaus and you strongly want/need/desire a change. These are the wants and desires that literally hurt from the inside and out. I have experienced these types of hurts occasionally in life and sometimes there's no temporary fix. Applying emotional 'band aids' only make it burn more. A constant sting that you just have to endure until the wound heals or you figure out how to manage and get through the day, or week, or maybe even month. :(

So as I feel a twinge coming on, I shall just close my eyes and silently tell myself . . . "Not this time. Maybe next time".